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Thursday, January 06, 2011

Back to the Grindstone

After 2 weeks (minus 3 days) of being off my librarian-job, I headed back to work
this week ...the girls were back in school.
I wasn't prepared for it to be such a downer.  Going back to work and all...
I knew the girls would be all Oh schools so boring, I'm tired, etc...
But--they really weren't all that.
Myself on the otherhand, had a difficult time getting back into the swing of things.

At first I thought it was just the routine I was having a hard time with, but
really--I'm someone who loves routine...then I realized walking home..its just about the fact of not being home more.

I am resolved in the fact I have to work.
I have since I was 16.
I am a single mom who at this point is not independantly wealthy and considering
I don't play the lottery, I don't see myself in non-working status anytime soon.
Even during my marriage, I worked part-time...partly because it worked perfect with
our schedules, partly because it was encouraged by both family and the wonderful
women I work with.  I enjoy work...well I should say, I enjoy work I love to do.
I love being a librarian.
I also love being a yoga teacher.
A new yoga teacher at that.
But, mostly love being a mom and I see the time slipping.  My oldest will be 15 this
spring and holy-cow that's crazy.
I've been so fortunate in my life and I have wonderful girls who amaze me...and so
being home with them this past two weeks was such an awesome gift.

On the other hand, I also realize I am someone who has a hard time not working.
I would be doing something.
I would be a full-time yoga teacher.
Maybe I still will be.
And then be home more.

I shouldn't whine..it'll all balance out.


Stacey said...

I'm so jealous that you're a librarian AND a yoga teacher. Sounds like a peaceful, interesting existence to me.

Not Emily said...

Stacey--thank you for that reminder!!!...you're very right--it is peaceful and very interesting!!:))

hiphophippie.com said...

I was totally depressed going back to work. But I guess once we ease into the flow, it gets better. And I think that's badass that you're a librarian.

Not Emily said...

hiphop...we do just kinda ease, and it gets better..especially with some baileys and coffee :)) And ya, librarians do kinda rock:)

The Boy said...

I love your prescribed medication for easing your way back into work. I must try that next time :) I've got to say that to spend your time surrounded by books sounds fantastic, although I don't think I would like to lend them out!

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