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Monday, February 28, 2011

What's made a huge impact on my life lately...

The story of Ganesha. Maybe you know it...boy with the elephant head? 
Well...last Thursday I took my girls to a Puja and it was by far one of the most amazing spiritual experience I've had with my girls, plus other folks...and the story of Ganesha was told.  I knew it, but my girls did not.
Our yogi, Lila, who was telling it was very animated and brought them into the story...they understood the meaning.
What was amazing about that evening was how it ended up evolving into this Ganesha love-fest...how my girls wanna do our own Puja and how I will sing to remove these obstacles in my own life.
Much love.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Who inspires me on day 16...

I am inspired by people who freely and openly live with every ounce of their being.  So I can't say there's just one person who truly inspires me, but people who love from their heart.

  So whether it's a yogi, bff, child or stranger...if you're living from your heart...what an inspiration.
Many blessings.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Someone I couldn't live without

Without sounding ridiculously selfish..who i couldn't live without
would be:
Seriously..It would horrible to live without my girls, my BD, my family,
my closest friends--but I would have to because it's life.
But I couldn't live without myself if I was living...also life.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Edward Hopper

I THINK I discovered Edward Hopper my freshman year of college.

I can't say it wasn't before that, but i do recall writing a research paper on him in Art History that year.
I didn't like Art History...maybe it's because I consider myself an artist and have always had an issue with analyzing an artists work--when in reality there may not be any reason for whatever they chose..or a meaning we'll never know...

I fell in love with the lighting of his paintings.
The meaningful simplicity.
The everyday people.
Plus we share a birthday.

Then at 20,  I started working at the library and a patron donated a bunch of books..he was showing me everything and I commented on a lovely Edward Hopper book.  He told me to have it.  So--I did.
I don't look at it enough anymore.
It sits under my Buddha and chimes...but it's a part of this spiritual area in my room I adore.
Cheers to Ed.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

What I love on day 12...

I have always loved Ovaltine.  I can not say the same for Quik or Hersheys.  Just Ovaltine. Love.
When I was little I would drink chocolate milk so rich with the malty-flavored chocolate I would get an upset belly.
Not the best thought, but now 30 years later--a happy-ish type memory.
Then it seemed there were many years I didn't drink it--and I'm not sure why other than I was young and my parents did the grocery shopping.

Along came my oldest and by the late 90's, I was back to drinking Ovaltine all over again.
This time, not only did I love the flavor, but understood why my parents probably bought it in the first place...vitamins and minerals. Yes, it does contain a number of them--unlike other chocolate milk products.
Plus--I felt like my girls were getting a treat.

And so--we still drink it.
Quite abit actually.
Yummy love in a glass.

Monday, February 14, 2011

It's really been more than 11 days...but what I hate:

I hate it.
I don't know anyone who likes it, but some who are more tolerant of it...
I respect soldiers.
I feel for them.
Some people believe we'll always have war--
that breaks my heart.
I read once in a passage about reincarnation that at some point in
our lives that we've been a soldier or fought in a war. 
I can believe that.
I believe that's why some people are so against it, while others
remain in the cycle.
I may seem niave about my peace/love/war/hippiness...but really--i am not.
I just believe no one wins.
It's not glorius.
But we fight onward and upward...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Day 10--Who I do the most crazy things with...

I don't really do anything crazy.
I do things others may not do...like dance alone or with Jackie B...or bellydance with my friends.
I enjoy having a cocktail--but does that bring out the crazy with one certain person?
Though I understand there are certain friends you may do one thing with, but not another...but even when I think back, there's never been one person I acted all up with...I probably had a group of them:)  Though the people in my life--Tammie and Kim--have made me laugh the absolute most, which can lead to some goofiness...
Over all though...call me boring.
Or honest.
Or a party-pooper.
I'm open and up for alot, with the folks I love and trust--but not with just one person--just for the sake of it.

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Who's gotten me through the most...

The one and only Tammie.
Friends since 6th grade.
The thing about best friends--true best friends--is that you don't have to worry.
I have never worried about us, well that's not true...once, shortly, my Sr. year because of some bad BF choices.  All my friends were shunning me.  I worried.
But not long--because do you know who was there for me when I getting out of that mess?
The one and only Tammie.
Who was there watching me have my first baby girl?
You know it...Tammie.
And who has seen me be my very best person and possibly, least best person at times...Tammie.
Tammie, like best friends should be, are like parents...offering unconditional, honest, belly-laughing love who will hold your hair when your sick and a cup of coffee in the morning.

Monday, February 07, 2011

Grace and the Mexican restaurant

I forgot.
Well, almost.
Last Friday was S.B's retirement party and I had told her I was going.
And I did.
But almost didn't.

Thank the holy heavens that C. called and asked if I was still going.
Really--how does that happen?  I remembered I had something to do, but couldn't quite pin it down.
So--Yay--C. called and I went for Mexican with all my working friends plus some spouses on the side. 

And being S.B's party she was slightly drunk on whiskey--while the rest of us were downing marquita's.  We all know she likes to drink (like most of us), which is why we're having the party at a Mexican place, rather than the library-- but I have to say she brought me to tears.
Not hard to do.
But if you knew S.B, you wouldn't think she'd be able to do that...because
she is a woman who believes in rules. And policy.  There are no favorites with staff. Or patrons.  She did her job and left on time, while we all worked without getting paid.  That said, some co-workers found her more difficult.
I always respected her.
Anyone who can be plain honest--I respect.

So--when she came up and gave me a big hug and called me sweetie--well, first I knew the whiskey had set in..but then she continued...
She told me--while getting tears in her own eyes (again--not so much like her)..that I had been through a lot these past few years and she had never seen
someone handle it with so much grace.
And how fortunate my girls were to have this grace in their life.

She was being raw.
Alittle drunk.
But --heartfelt and vulnerable.

Something I wish she showed more of to people--but what this made me realize is that we affect people in ways we can never know.
(Just like Tammie and her making her people laugh)
And thankfully--I got to know how I affected her.

This is one of my newer self-discoveries...understanding what I bring to others that I usually dismiss...

So--thank you S.B. for telling me about my grace.
It gives new meaning to the word.
As a kid--oh and adult, I'm rather clumsy and get called grace in a teasing way--now I even look at that different...I'll be graceful however I am.

Laughing on Day 8



we sat
outside the 100degree
t wave
floating through my non-a-c'ed house
to yours

never remembering what show we may be watching
because all i mean to do is
to be
with you

and we laughed
photo-oping silliness
in the summer afternoon

Saturday, February 05, 2011

Day 7--My most treasured item isn't an item...

But my three most treasured loves in this universe...
their laughing joy in the picture will always make me smile...

Thursday, February 03, 2011

Who I'd love to change places with for the day

 The Dalai Lama

I don't know how I feel about any one person having immense influence over people, but the DL seems to pretty much rock it.
His loving guidance towards people, the world and life offer truths that can be found in all religions.
I love that he understands and shares that all people want to be happy...and it's our place to discover what makes us happy physically and emotionally--while also letting go of what makes us suffer.

I imagine he has a loving presence, attracting those who also love...which I could completely handle for the day--PLUS more.

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

Day 5--A Pic of my Fave Memory

I don't have just one picture of my favorite memory but more than half a lifetime...but I think this pic about sums it up with my BFF--Tammie and I...
This was at her Wrap Party for http://www.projectbelieve.net/  Check it out. 

"Happiness is only real when shared".....from Into the Wild

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