Merry Tired

I'm tired.

I know this is the time of the year I'm supposed to be full of cheer--but

I'm having a hard time locating the internal energy to actually bring about cheer.

I'm happy.

And honestly, I'm cheerful--but mostly ready to hibernate.

And see some sunshine.

But--seeing how it's just beginning to actual BE winter, I'm less than optimistic

that I'll be seeing alot of sunshine.  In reality, I really don't mind winter.  I love watching the peaceful snowflakes..the quiet walks..bundling up...but right now this

tiredness is killing it in me.

And being over-analytical-me, I wonder why am I feeling this way?

Granted I've had a cold for two weeks and my ears have decided to give me a new

pitch to listen to..but is it I'm still sick or just need rest.

Rest.

I'm sure.

Which the idea of that makes me tired, because I haven't even started Christmas shopping and hmmm...could it be just days away?  And I have 3 girls to buy for.  And family.  And BD. 

That makes me tired just thinking getting myself geared up enough to go.

And no--I'm not depressed if anyone is wondering.  I've been down before--this is not it or the pre-mode to it...

Then there's work.

And yoga.

All things I love.

I've created a new goal with the two--but envision some tiredness to be able to get to my goal.  Not exhaustion.  Just growth. 

So--grow.

And then be less tired.

And then the sun will shine.

And then it will be spring.

Merry Friday.