I know this is the time of the year I'm supposed to be full of cheer--but
I'm having a hard time locating the internal energy to actually bring about cheer.
And honestly, I'm cheerful--but mostly ready to hibernate.
And see some sunshine.
But--seeing how it's just beginning to actual BE winter, I'm less than optimistic
that I'll be seeing alot of sunshine. In reality, I really don't mind winter. I love watching the peaceful snowflakes..the quiet walks..bundling up...but right now this
tiredness is killing it in me.
And being over-analytical-me, I wonder why am I feeling this way?
Granted I've had a cold for two weeks and my ears have decided to give me a new
pitch to listen to..but is it I'm still sick or just need rest.
Which the idea of that makes me tired, because I haven't even started Christmas shopping and hmmm...could it be just days away? And I have 3 girls to buy for. And family. And BD.
That makes me tired just thinking getting myself geared up enough to go.
And no--I'm not depressed if anyone is wondering. I've been down before--this is not it or the pre-mode to it...
Then there's work.
All things I love.
I've created a new goal with the two--but envision some tiredness to be able to get to my goal. Not exhaustion. Just growth.
And then be less tired.
And then the sun will shine.
And then it will be spring.