only (in) appropriate

seems only

(in)appropriate

that the day my love

that i reacted from

25 years ago

and hearing the words, 

"why would you flinch?"

and me saying,

"i'm sorry"

with tears in my eyes

sadness in your eyes

knowing the past

sometimes leaves shrilling passages

so when i was putting away dishes 

and the pasts-last-dish

tumbled it's ultimate fate

i knew

know

that sometimes

it's best to not understand

but move forward

on

everyday i left, 

knowing #whyistayed when i was young

and 

knowing #whyileft everyday

dealing with those surprise ripples

on tuesday's like this